Things I'm dreaming about - New Year

This time last year, I was falling in love with a guy who would never love me back. I spent the whole of Christmas and New Year hidden away. In fact, New Year at Cate's completely passed me by. I talked to people, I smiled, I had a few drinks. I couldn't have been more detached from the whole evening. Whilst everyone was cheering at the countdown, I was completely heartbroken.

But I love New Year. So much more than Christmas. It's a completely new start. It's the one day of the year where everything really does start afresh. My head was a complete mess this year. It was horrible. I spent the first two months of 2009 holding my breath because I had no idea what was going to happen. I put my happiness in someone else's hands. I'll never ever do that again.

Despite this, my excitement about New Year never wains. It's full of so much hope. And I'm full of so much hope. Already, I'm excited about what might happen in 2010. I'm enjoying just writing '2010'. All the mistakes that I've made this year, I can put behind me. All the things I never got around to doing, I can give priority to. The things I was too afraid to do this year, I can kick the ass out of next year. The calm after Christmas is utter bliss. I know some people get bored of those few days between Christmas and New Year, but I don't. I'm busy.

Clearing out, getting ready. Preparing.

Because once you wake up on New Year, everything is new again. You can't fix a broken heart just because the year has changed, but I firmly believe that you can fix everything else.

Flickr image from Amanda M Hatfield's photostream.